Sunday, October 29, 2006
im so super irritated now.
AAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
im so confused and i super dont understand.
of all days, today! tmr is my Olevels exam lah,
HELLLLOOOO.
AWWWWWWW. im really irritated. =(
im upset & disappointed.
with just simply/maybe eveything.
*SREAMMMMMMMMMM*
7:58 PM
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im so super irritated now.
AAHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
im so confused and i super dont understand.
of all days, today! tmr is my Olevels exam lah,
HELLLLOOOO.
AWWWWWWW. im really irritated. =(
im upset & disappointed.
with just simply/maybe eveything.
*SREAMMMMMMMMMM*
7:58 PM
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Saturday, October 28, 2006
AHH! i blog a whole lot and now its gone. this stupid blogger.com :( this irritating thing. monday is Olevel chinese paper and im feeling super weird abt it. AAHHH. =( i feel like i break into someone else's house today. cause the owner is not ard and i studied the whole day there. didnt study alot, just a little. hais. i really feel quite trapped and pressurized recently. love is shown in diff ways tt make me feel so super unloved. but i know ppl care. but im really trying, trying to study hard, to care&love like Jesus do. i dont want to give up ministry or what so ever because of studies. i promise to balance and try k. i still want you to care, to be more than a leader, but a friend, a brother-in-Christ. God, pls help me. ah, im really feeling terrible, so terrible. :( my QT aint going anywhere too. i really need a good break, a retreat to somewhere comfortable, without worries. hmm sounds like heaven. heh. leave me alone, wont youS. AAHHHH, im really gg crazy too. deep down into depression. aww//.and randomly, i miss kor! *laughs. i bought the book, my utmost for the highest today! and i love it. and hey, im gg to be serious abt getting real with God. serious.pls, pray for me, i want to be able to finish stronger.
10:44 PM
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monday is chinese Olevels. AAHHH. :( im feeling so super weird abt it.i feel like i broke into someone else's house today. heh, cause the owner wasnt at home and i spent the whole day studying there. din do quite alot, just alittle bit. aw :( ha, its quite weird tho. but i like it there, really! :D i love everything there, im starting to like the scary dog tooo! love<333>
recently, i really feel quite unhappy tho. i felt so trapped. maybe love is being shown in diff ways tt makes me feel so unloved. but well, i know ppl still care. =) i feel tt im living my life for the sake of others, i live, i do things cause others want me to. i feel so horrible! and i really feeel so under pressure and so controlled. but ya, i know :) its for my own good. God, pls help me. but QT is not getting anywhere too. ah, i feel so terrible, so bad, so not consistent, so unworthy of His love. =(
i really need a retreat, to somewhere comfortable, without worries. (hmm sounds like heaven) i want to go on cruise/holiday and ya da ya da. okays, you know what, i should study more now. ah. ok, pls stop staring at me. stop giving me pressure. i beg you. i want you to still care, but nt like tt ok? pls. i want you to be more than a leader but a friend, a brother in christ.
okay, randomy- i miss kor! *laughs.
i bought the book today! my utmost for the highest! love. (:
im serious abt getting real with God again, im serious. the battlefield is our mind, and the battle? it belongs to our Lord. (:
im Yours.
yonglingg.
10:20 PM
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Thursday, October 26, 2006
we gonna dance dance dance in the freedom we know.
because the freedom we know its gonna last forever!
alrights, i woke up feeling weird today. ah, im lazier.heh. spent time reading book and yes! i completed the book tt daryl gave me like donkey months ago. =) now i have to search for new book to read. lovelove. reading is good for you. and yes i know bigfreak will agree *grins* i love the way some writer writes, they really get me so caught up in a book, man its only a book! heh. life been getting more real now than Olevels are like 4days away and tt more things are starting to surface.
making sure your own walk with God are constant and on track is hard enough sometimes. dont even talk abt learning to wait upon God and leading others closer to Jesus. argh, im really weird. walk on, press on, hang in there, you are not alone, God is with you. all these words sound really familiar ya? all the standard words from a friend, use to comfort you. somehow yes we appreaciate them more than anything but sometimes situation at tt time just doesnt allow those words to sound good enough. oh wells.
okayy, i should learn to love like Jesus loves and yes i told many before, i want to care like Jesus cares. our God is also a God for the abandon, the unloved.
God, give me compassion and love to love&care like You do. most importantly, i ask for Your grace upon me and pls grant me passion for Your name. help me say, i love You, father.
my God is mighty to save, :D
12:46 PM
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006
:( i need to study more!
today. im so not feeling happy. :( dont ask me why, dont really know too. haha. just not feeling very good. :( i dreamt tt i found my ez-link card, haha. arghh, dreams are so beautiful! , but i hate it when i woke up and realised its just a dream. how sad...
why is life always so complicated? gr.
maybe we should just make things simpler, dont think so much. life just goes on man.
no matter what, i think the most important thing to me is being happy. whatever you want to do, want to be, its important to be happy ya! heh. i feel so weird blogging like tt, so nonsense haha. =P
well, im pretty glad tt i got a new blog. new url, new skin, new posts, new start :) i guess it is still pretty low-profile, keep it tt way ya. i want to be able to talk whatever i want here, i want to be ME! :D heh.
aw, im feeling alittle tired. but i dont feel like sleeping. its night time, and its when we start to think..abt almost everything, life. i kinda miss alot of things. school, spending time with family, spending time with IDentified/close group of ppl. i miss daddy, i miss my ez-link card, i miss being joyful, i miss being funny, heh. i miss spending time with God, i miss being the girl of earnest trust. (quote lu) help. you think im depressed? heh, perhaps but maybe nt tt serious.
alrights, stop thinking so much yongling. sleep early is good for you. its abt one alrdy. nights.
pray pray pray pray!
yongling.
11:58 PM
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Tuesday, October 24, 2006
today, again, i realised how life can be so fragile.
i dream of daddy again, dreamt tt he's alive! i really miss daddy. :( i always dream of him and the image tt we went out together. family outing. its so fun lah. but once i wake up, you realised tt its all a dream.
grief lingers.
10:34 PM
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we still ROCKS. :D
i love kids, every single one. teri too <3>
10:12 PM
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i studied quite abit ytd and im happy =)
alrights, dont really have much time online, but i like it this way. spending little time online, check e-mails, blog, read, smile.
studying been alrights, not say super fantastic but im pretty fine, just dont quit ya? i been really encouraged by alot of ppl and you know sometimes when so many ppl care you must admit tt it is because God cares. =)
been spending quite alot of time with ximin and my kor recently, its good. ha, its the different season of life thing. its like this period of time, i spend more time with these ppl, next period of time, spend more time with the other ppl, well i guess good things and good times wont last :) but thank God for good times too!
im really glad tt sfc is making good progress, keep praying for us k? and reach us at :
radiatorsforchrist@hotmail.com and also our blog, shineforchrist-.blogspot.com
alrightys, going to mug. i will blog soon really. =) love.
Jesus shall be the reason i smile.
yongling.
12:49 PM
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Monday, October 23, 2006
after so long of deciding to change blogskin, change blog and ya da ya da, i finally settled down in one again.
new start, i decided to live just for Jesus, His name, i will glorify and praise.
dont want to wast time find new blogskin, so yah, =) think being simple is cool too. i will change until someone has completed custom making my blogskin :D
Olevels is like 7 days. mug harder yongling. :D ha.
alrightys, go to run! blog on ppl, loves.
"oh i love you more than i can say. :D"
yongling.!
9:05 AM
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